The thing I miss the most...

...about being in a (good) relationship:

Having that one someone who knows exactly and instinctively how to respond...to in-jokes, to melt-downs, to that subtle look, to a hug held too long, or to a reluctance to touch, to the need to be close, quiet, loud, or silly. Just that knowing: what to give back, how much to take, and what to do with it.

I'm not romanticizing. I have had this before and it is definitely what I miss the most.

bits and pieces

I seem to have tunnel vision, or a one track mind, or something like that. There is only one place I really want to be right now and I am distracted at all times when I am not there. It's weird - I have never felt quite so compelled to be among (and one of) the crazy people before.
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I require very little personal space. I need to remember that many other people do.

OK, that's not true - I do require personal space around people I don't adore but all you folks who I am close to - look out!

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Thinking alot about crushes. I love the feeling of harmless crush - the little heart flutter, the ability to fixate momentarily on someone who for whatever reason has caught your eye. I don't mean the kind of crushes where you want to date that person someday... I mean the kind where, from a distance, they can make you smile or make you wish you could clone them or make you feel somehow safe... all with that little flutter. But harmless, you know?

No Dave, I don't mean that one - don't get weirded out.

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It is possible to obsess about two things at once. Who knew?