you and I

Who hit the rewind button? When did we go back to this? What happened to propel us backwards in time to this place, this spot, this moment? (weren't we here before? didn't we get through this part?) I feel like the intervening time no longer exists and we're back to square one. I feel like I imagined the development of us into to what we are (were?). I feel a distance that cannot be explained merely by distance - which is considerable.

I don't like it. But I am unsure as I was then just how to approach you to bring us back to where we'd arrived. That unimaginable place that came totally by surprise, and for which I was so grateful.