out of focus

I am oddly torn in a hundred directions. No, torn is too extreme. I feel a strange confusion, an inability to commit to a direction, to a task, to a discussion. Part of me feels that I've done something wrong, that somehow I have ended up on the wrong side of that discussion again.... That I said a wrong thing, simplified too much, made little what was large...

Part is me is just worried about such a simple thing as paying my cell phone bill.