I guess it doesn't work that way...

Sometimes I need not to be needed but still to be indispensible. Sometimes I need to be alone but still have people wonder where I am. Sometimes I want to be with him but still included in them. (non-specific him, specific them).

Selfish contradictions that never quite work out. I can be pretty selfish, I know, I need to work on this.

I hope, still, that these are forgiveable contradictions. And that they understand... They usually do, they're good that way. And I am grateful. Always.