the upside of shitty

OK so I feel like I'm heading back towards human finally. I've been sick. Very sick - thought I had pneumonia sick. I've been sick alot this winter. Someone asked me if I thought it was my job and that got me thinking. I'm not sure. I'd like to say no, I've just had a bad winter...but maybe there's something to that - who knows? I just know that I am now ridiculously behind on work I have to do, which is making me behind and unable to do work I want to do, which makes it seem like I just can't do it all. And I want to be able to do it all. So badly.

So mostly I just wanted to make the "I suck" post not the first one you see. But I'm not that far from the mindset yet so this is what you get.

Sorry to be a downer.