So I made the ill-advised attempt to prolong something that was extremely joyous and special for me by engaging in a similar activity with some of the same people. So wrong. In so many ways.

bah.

sometimes I'm just dumb.

Also I made the assumption that this smaller, sort of more intimate setting would be good for a certain situation. And it was...sort of... but in the end that just made everything worse.

again...dumb.