OCD

I have days when I compulsively check my email. I hold my breath as the program opens, hitting the send/receive button every 45 seconds, hoping for that elusive email... but for the last, longest while... it has not come. And always I think the person on the other end - rather than simply busy, or not able to get online - is angry with me for some mysterious thing I have done (or not done).

I am irrational and paranoid.

Or maybe I just miss him.